and then my heart
melted right out of my chest. my skin
just bubbled and couldn't keep the liquid organ
in it's cavity,
as the blackness drip dripped out onto the floor in a sad puddle.
it made some terrible squelching sounds,
but i didn't mind.
I was still leaning over the arm of my chair,
making sure the last drop
plopped out onto the rest.
I wondered if that meant i wouldn't feel angry anymore,
but that didn't happen.
numb just became the high point,
and the hollowness felt more poignant
during the low points.